I’m a happily married man, but for a long time I’ve worried I’d be irresistibly drawn to cheat just because of my insatiable sexual appetite.

When I smoke marijuana, I’m one of the horniest people I know. My roving eye is in full force, and my imagination too. I’m much more motivated to seek out online porn when I’ve gotten stoned in the past half day or so, and the rush I get from masturbating, either to porn or to my own fantasies, is irresistible.

Even when my wife is in a particularly sexual mood, I’ll still be driven to masturbate on my own at least once or twice a day. Given the right circumstances (including a wife who’s not in the mood at all), I’ve managed 7 wanks in a day, with no ill effects and no regrets.

When I’m stoned often, a part of my brain takes over that says “Yeesh, I should be so lucky. Why can’t I have his job??” I also experience intrusive thoughts of ripping the clothes off of any attractive woman whom I meet personally in my day to day life.

I’ve stalked the facebook pages of chicks who’ve shown sexual interest in me years ago, and thought strategically about what it would take to get back into their lives and lay them. I even have a couple of sexual fetishes that I only ever feel an interest in when I’m stoned. They’re things that I’m sure my wife isn’t interested in, and would probably scare her. But that’s OK, because most of the time we have sex sober.

I’m a happily married man, but for a long time I’ve worried I’d be irresistibly drawn to cheat just because of my insatiable sexual appetite.